As the title say, I was in a car crash today. Good news, I'm mostly unharmed. Bad news, they had to take my grandma to the hospital, but all in all, she does looks fine and has no signs of any serious injury.

Still, she'll stay the night to be in observation.

Overall I'm fine, with a big headache, but fine none the less ^^

Letting you all know that I'm leaving tomorrow to take care of my grandma for a few weeks.

Apologies for any absent or delay that that might cause

And let's hope that it will be better
It's safe to say that this wasn't the best year for most, certainly wasn't for me

Been debating whether make a list of all the stuff that has happened to me or not, so... in short: 

Got sick a few times, get depressed a lot, had to deal with dead, start with a new therapist and new medication, fail some job interviews, got new friends, lost old friends, actually did inktober and lost one of my cats

(That last one was rather recent and really broke my heart)

Every year I do a list of promises for the new year, not always succeed at them, but it's important to not give up!

So, here I go:

1.-get better habits: waking up earlier, organice more my time, all that stuff
2.-clean up my room, to organize my life I need to organise my place
3.-Go back to job searching
4.-get more organized and more efficient in my drawings

I really did anything this year and I need to get better at it

And to all, I hope you have a great 2018 and never give up on your life's, no matter how hard things get *hugs*

And I mean computer stuff (darn abbreviations)

I just had some PC stuff happen and I think it's time for me to get an upgrade. Problem is... I know jack about technobabble

Does anyone have any recommendations? I just want something where I can play some games and do art

For all your gifts and birthday wishes.

Really cuddles my heart seeing so many people throwing nice wishes at me every year <3

So again, from the bottom of my heart

THANK YOU!

First, don't worry. I'm not going anywhere. Though I haven't really been here all that much either.

I know this year. But more precisely since last year till today, I haven't been here that much. I mean, I've been here, but not as active.

I've written more than a few journals about me and feeling down and I wanted to thank you all again for always cheering me up. But I... I don't think I'm getting better

I want to get better, I want to do more, I want to come back and talk with all of you again. But I never seem to be able to and it's not for lack of time.

Ever since finishing my final tests (worst experience of my life) I've been very emotionally fragile

There are days where I can work on a half finished piece for hours on end. And there are days like now, where I have an almost finished piece and I can't even move the mouse. And there are days where I can't even get out of bed.

My anxiety is the worst. I feel my stomach clenching and a lack of air. I'm so afraid of losing everyone I end up paralyzed. Both IRL and here

... I guy I followed for many years erased his account this year. he was one of the first people I followed here. When I realised it, I went back and watch all his journals and status... there was nothing saying that he was thinking of leaving, but... 

Another friend of mine has had a really horrible year so far. And just like with the last one, I lost contact with him for many months until I decided to see how he had been. Losing his house, trying to survive. Went throw some really desperate moments and I wasn't there for him, when he needed it the most. He is better now, but I can't forgive myself

And IRL, people I know are sick and... there's nothing I can do. There's nothing is can be done. and I don't know what to do. Again, I just end up paralyzed and... just can't do anything

I'm back on therapy and medication as of right now. So far: 

-therapy really not good. The first one I went kinda ended up quitting on me and the second one I just started, but it really wasn't a good start (one of the reasons I'm feeling like this today)

-medication... yes and no. I was on some pills for my depression. They kinda work, but they also gave me nightmares, plus I run out. Now I'm with something to sleep and I think it works, but I also think it has a cumulative effect. So who knows how I'll be in a week or so

Sorry for the huge rant. I think some of the stuff here I've said before. I just needed to let some stuff out... again

But, more than that, I wanted to say:

Thanks to all my friend that have always been there for me. Sorry to all my friends for not being there for you

That's not the Leia slave bikini

Nothing against it, but I'm looking for variety here ¬.¬

I forgot to rate the vicky pic as A! I can't believe it! DX

Thank you all with your help with that, that was extremely dumb of me
 

Not saying it just because I want presents (I do) But I know I have friends that hate getting notifications when it's like in a week and don't have time to do anything

So, here you go! 10 weeks, I hope that's more than enough ^^

Also, don't feel obliged to do something for me if you can't or won't. A simple "happy birthday is enough" ^^

Just for the weekend, all commissions are 20% off!!!

I'm in really need for money, please help me and don't miss your chance ;w;

http://drakes-world.tumblr.com/post/156584544066/commissions-open