For all your gifts and birthday wishes.

Really cuddles my heart seeing so many people throwing nice wishes at me every year <3

So again, from the bottom of my heart

THANK YOU!

First, don't worry. I'm not going anywhere. Though I haven't really been here all that much either.

I know this year. But more precisely since last year till today, I haven't been here that much. I mean, I've been here, but not as active.

I've written more than a few journals about me and feeling down and I wanted to thank you all again for always cheering me up. But I... I don't think I'm getting better

I want to get better, I want to do more, I want to come back and talk with all of you again. But I never seem to be able to and it's not for lack of time.

Ever since finishing my final tests (worst experience of my life) I've been very emotionally fragile

There are days where I can work on a half finished piece for hours on end. And there are days like now, where I have an almost finished piece and I can't even move the mouse. And there are days where I can't even get out of bed.

My anxiety is the worst. I feel my stomach clenching and a lack of air. I'm so afraid of losing everyone I end up paralyzed. Both IRL and here

... I guy I followed for many years erased his account this year. he was one of the first people I followed here. When I realised it, I went back and watch all his journals and status... there was nothing saying that he was thinking of leaving, but... 

Another friend of mine has had a really horrible year so far. And just like with the last one, I lost contact with him for many months until I decided to see how he had been. Losing his house, trying to survive. Went throw some really desperate moments and I wasn't there for him, when he needed it the most. He is better now, but I can't forgive myself

And IRL, people I know are sick and... there's nothing I can do. There's nothing is can be done. and I don't know what to do. Again, I just end up paralyzed and... just can't do anything

I'm back on therapy and medication as of right now. So far: 

-therapy really not good. The first one I went kinda ended up quitting on me and the second one I just started, but it really wasn't a good start (one of the reasons I'm feeling like this today)

-medication... yes and no. I was on some pills for my depression. They kinda work, but they also gave me nightmares, plus I run out. Now I'm with something to sleep and I think it works, but I also think it has a cumulative effect. So who knows how I'll be in a week or so

Sorry for the huge rant. I think some of the stuff here I've said before. I just needed to let some stuff out... again

But, more than that, I wanted to say:

Thanks to all my friend that have always been there for me. Sorry to all my friends for not being there for you

That's not the Leia slave bikini

Nothing against it, but I'm looking for variety here ¬.¬

I forgot to rate the vicky pic as A! I can't believe it! DX

Thank you all with your help with that, that was extremely dumb of me
 

Not saying it just because I want presents (I do) But I know I have friends that hate getting notifications when it's like in a week and don't have time to do anything

So, here you go! 10 weeks, I hope that's more than enough ^^

Also, don't feel obliged to do something for me if you can't or won't. A simple "happy birthday is enough" ^^

Just for the weekend, all commissions are 20% off!!!

I'm in really need for money, please help me and don't miss your chance ;w;

http://drakes-world.tumblr.com/post/156584544066/commissions-open

Single character 10$ to 15$ (Depending on the amount of detail)

Simple 10: http://sta.sh/02fql3hi7asn

Elaborated 12/13: http://sta.sh/01evxwgk189k

Complex 15: http://sta.sh/01pa6mujdafa

Half bodied half the price: http://sta.sh/01fct9bn8x4h

Backgrounds: from 5$ to 20$ depending on the detail

Gradient 5: http://sta.sh/0jsi0m7u5zc

Simple 10: http://sta.sh/01nlkyztdyyc

Elaborated (forgrownd and backgrownd details)15: http://sta.sh/026t1nujz1g9

Complex (multiple background layers) 20: http://sta.sh/02e56j7ypiz6

Multiple characters: Former rules apply. Each character get 25% discount 

Ex: 2 elaborated 24$ minus 25% = 18$ http://sta.sh/02at8rfdarvj

nsfw/private commissions:

-Things I won't do: Gore, bore, rape, scat, etc

-Things I would do: Loli, shota, bdsm, etc

lewd/ecchi, no extra: http://sta.sh/053byxoggs5 http://sta.sh/01xa69j711u2

Porn/hentai 5$

Lolicon/shotacon 10$

private 10$

SLOTS OPEN

1.- FA commission

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3.-

4.-

Paypal only

Single character 10$ to 15$ (Depending on the amount of detail)

Simple 10: http://sta.sh/02fql3hi7asn

Elaborated 12/13: http://sta.sh/01evxwgk189k

Complex 15: http://sta.sh/01pa6mujdafa

Half bodied half the price: http://sta.sh/01fct9bn8x4h

Backgrounds: from 5$ to 20$ depending on the detail

Gradient 5: http://sta.sh/0jsi0m7u5zc

Simple 10: http://sta.sh/01nlkyztdyyc

Elaborated (forgrownd and backgrownd details)15: http://sta.sh/026t1nujz1g9

Complex (multiple background layers) 20: http://sta.sh/02e56j7ypiz6

Multiple characters: Former rules apply. Each character get 25% discount 

Ex: 2 elaborated 24$ minus 25% = 18$ http://sta.sh/02at8rfdarvj

nsfw/private commissions:

-Things I won't do: Gore, bore, rape, scat, etc

-Things I would do: Loli, shota, bdsm, etc

lewd/ecchi, no extra: http://sta.sh/053byxoggs5 http://sta.sh/01xa69j711u2

Porn/hentai 5$

Lolicon/shotacon 10$

private 10$

SLOTS OPEN

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2.-

3.-

4.-

Paypal only

Because I've done many and all have been unpopular

Would anyone be interested? ñ~ñ

I just want to say that. I know this year has been pretty bad in general. It's been a year with a lot of bad news and bad stuff that seemed to never end, and I wasn't the exception

It's been a year full of stress, anxiety, depression and that's the short version.

So, I just wanted to say... thanks

I just wanted to thank you all. All my good old friends or the random watcher that just come to my page, saw I wasn't doing well and threw a few caring words.

After all, that what this time of the year is supposed to be about. Caring for the ones close to you and not so close to you

I know that in the big scheme of things, I'm one of the lucky ones. The world is so loud, we forget that there are a lot of people in way worst situations and, it's important not to forget about that

If you're one of the ones that had it the worst this year, I just want to say. I'm so happy that you're here and if I can do something for you, please don't doubt to ask

Please be safe, I love you all and I hope this time next year, thing be alot better to all of us